That's what He told me Wednesday, after He fastened the ball gag in place. He'd tightened the strap, so the little black silicon ball sat snug in my mouth. I couldn't even mutter a muffled response.
"And none of your crap about 'Warm-ups,' either," He added.
At this point, seeing as I was bent over the end of the bed, hands bound with purple rope and tied to the headboard, ass exposed and mouth gagged, I sensed I might be in a bit of trouble. Clearly, my past admonitions regarding the importance of warm-ups had come back to bite me in the ass, so to speak.
Naturally, this time there were no warm-ups. He started at His speed, which is zero-to-100 in five seconds or so. He used multiple instruments of pain: His hand, the black paddle, Mr. Blister (a cross between a leather strap and a paddle), the long-handled plastic shoe horn, and of course, the cane.
He used them all, one right after the other, and quickly set my ass on fire.
Then He stopped and put His hand between my legs---the moment of truth, the moment of exposure. The moment when He discovers just how aroused I am (I always wonder what He thinks at that moment. Perhaps it's better I don't know). A small wave of shame washed over me, as it always does. It passed quickly. Shame was rapidly replaced by greed...greed for His touch, His cock, more pain, just more of everything, please.
Did He somehow sense my greed, my need for more? I don't think so, but He certainly was generous. He beat my ass some more, then He fucked me, hard, and He took pleasure as He pressed His flesh against my stinging ass cheeks. His moans and groans told me how pleased He was.
At one point, He mentioned how mean it would be if He came, right then, and just left me there. Unable to articulately respond, thanks to the ball gag, I instead grunted my displeasure at that idea, and He laughed at me.
And He didn't cum. Instead, He forced my legs farther apart and held them open with one of His legs. He took aim on my poor, exposed pussy with the long-handled shoe horn. It only took a few blows to set my pussy on fire. This was followed by more fucking, and His arousal at my discomfort fueled my arousal, an on and on it went...beating and fucking and beating and fucking, until the beating stopped.
He untied me, removed the ball gag, ordered me to look at my bright red ass in the mirror, then told me to get up onto the bed. Like a good girl, I followed His orders and received my reward; He used His mouth on me until I came. Then He fucked me hard and deep, until He came.
Afterwards, He asked me if I was O.K. Yes, I replied, I was O.K. I also felt high, loaded up on endorphins and all those other feel-good things that result from a really intense sexual connection with Him. It all felt so good...so addictive. Is it possible I am addicted to Him?
We will have some time alone this afternoon. Perhaps I can entice Him to play rough with me again today, and I can get another fix.